"I love you more"

"I miss you so much right now"

"You're my sweetheart"

This is everything I was wishing for two weeks ago.

I should be happy and I am,

But I can't shake this fear, this uncertainty, this dangerous feeling.

It keeps me up at night.

What if he changes his mind again?

Things are going well now, but what happens when we get into our next fight?

What happens when I decide not to overlook your rudeness and buy your bad mood excuse?

Or if I happen to express an opinion or feeling that you may not want to hear?

We're going to fight. It's going to happen.

And you're going to wake up the next morning and think..

"Why did I want her back?"

I know it's not healthy to not trust you, but it's hard.

After knowing someone and trusting in them for so long...

and then having them crush you in an instant.

It's terrifying to know that he has that power over me.

Especially because if he wanted to...

he could destroy me all over again.

This song is sad, powerful though. I love Matchbox 20, paticularly their music from this album, Yourself or Someone Like You

Push - Matchbox 20 Lyrics

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
by a hand that's touched me, and I feel like something's gonna give
and I'm a little bit angry, well

this ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you around
you don't own me, we might change it
yeah we just might feel good

(CHORUS)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted
Yeah, yeah, well I will

she said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya
and I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
you couldn't stand to be near me
when my face don't seem to want to shine
cuz it's a little bit dirty, well

don't just stand there, say nice things to me
cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged, but you
you don't know me, yeah, well I can't change
Well, I won't do anything at all

I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, yeah I wanna take you for granted
Yeah, yeah, well I will

oh but don't bowl me over
just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy
don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby, baby

I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, yeah yeah yeah
I wanna take you, take you, yeah, well I will
I will, I will, I will, yeah
I will, I will, I will, yeah yeah
push you around, and drag you down
I wanna push you around
Well I will